Saturday, January 28, 2006

Yes, I want some cheese with my whine!

I hardly ever see my husband anymore. Between work and school he is never here. It makes me sad and leaves me overwhelmed. This is as close to being a single parent as I ever want to come. Worst of all, Erin's grades are suffering because I can't keep it all going alone. She needs routine and lately I haven't provided anything stable. We've all been more than preoccupied with surgery and sickness. It showed in Erin's report card. I know, it's only 4th grade, but I hate to see that my lack of structure is causing her to strugle. She's a smart kid, but she needs firm parenting. I was a do-it-myself kind of child. My mom never had to ask me about my homework or if my room was clean. I was very self motivated. Erin is more of the free thinking type. Her little brain goes from A to Z in a matter of seconds. I love this about her. I adore that she is so creative and imaginative. It does require me to keep her little thinking train on track though. It was easier when David was here to pick up some of the slack. I don't blame him for any of this. I'm glad that he is going to school and creating opportunity for himself and our family. It's just tough being in the thick of it. I just keep reminding myself only a few more months to go. I'm trying to convince him to take a 6 week phase break. He's warming up to the idea. I'm sure he has to be just as exahusted as I am if not more so.

7 comments:

Aola said...

It's hard, isn't it? I do appreciate how hard Mark works and how dedicated he is to providing for us but sometimes it is just too much. He's here but he's not here, nothing ever gets done except work, we never seem to do anything together as family besides work and sometimes I get very tired of feeling like the least important thing on his "to-do" list.

Kristen said...

I'm feeling you guys, too. This is our busiest time of year at work, and sometimes I seriously wonder how anything gets done around here. We are both just so tired sometimes.

Sandra said...

We all need a girls weekend in a tropical location with cabana boys to bring us drinks!

Becky said...

That's rough. I hope you guys get some time soon.

erica said...

What is he in school for?

Kristen said...

Ooooh, cabana boys...I mean...

I just went through your scrapbook, Sandra. You are so talented! Thanks for making these available for us to see!

Sandra said...

Thanks Becky!
Erca, he's in school for automotive technology with a certifcation to be a smog technician.
Thanks for looking at my scrapbook Kristen and your kind words. :)