Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I'm the biggest chicken! Recently David's boss offered him a promotion. At the first sign of a good excuse not to move, I jumped. It's not that I don't want to move. Of cousre I want to. I tried to explain it to David last night, but he didn't really understand. Living on my family land has been my dream for as long as I can remember. I used to have sleep-overs in the "Big House" and dream of how I would make it over into the perfect house. I had and have a very idealistic view of life there. I think I'm allowed that because it's my dream. The fact that I know it's an idealistic view tells me that some part of me knows it won't be exactly as I imagine or maybe not even close to what I imagine. That being said, I'm scared of how different it might be and more than a little sad that this move, while giving birth to many new dreams, will mean allwoing reality to settle in to the cracks of a very old dream.

5 comments:

Denise said...

So are you staying? Or are you moving........Follow your dreams Sandy....... The bible tells us that without a vision (dreams) people perish.... Follow that heart and the reality that follows will be the dream........ you build a dream not step into it... I have learned over the years that as we move toward our dream, we have to go through some high water..So you just dream on girl until it becomes a reality...

Sandra said...

Thanks Aunt Denise! We are moving. We might be pushing it back a month, depending on finances, but we are moving. :)

aola said...

I've kind of worried about that.. I know you have an idealistic view of what life will be in PA, but, knowing you, you will be able to make the best of every situation.

Denise said...

I am sooooooooooo glad you are moving..... You are young and full of life and rightly so.. You go with your heart and make that dream come true... Life is tough and that will always be true but life is an adventure to experienced... Do not settle for second when first place is a possibility.... We all have hopes and dreams... some have the courage to try and fail when others never try...... be the one that tries........ Dreams come true only when we are brave enough to try..........I will look forward to hearing about each step that you and David take toward what your heart has already seen...

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cv said...

This move is a big deal, having doubts and casting about is only natural.