Tuesday, September 07, 2010

portrait of me

All too often David complains that there are no photos of me. I am always the one behind the camera capturing these moments that will add up to a lifetime of memories.
Yesterday I made it my mission to capture myself at thirty-one. My hair is longer than it has been in years, I've gained a few pounds which show up in the roundness of my cheeks, and there are faint laugh lines around my eyes. Most of the time I don't feel thirty-one. I'm not even sure how thirty-one should feel. I know that I am more comfortable with myself than I have ever been. When I looked at this picture in the view finder of my camera I didn't think "Oh God delete it!". I saw the round face, thin blond hair, big smile, laugh lines, and bright eyes and thought "Yep, that's me.". Of course there are still things I would change about me, but I don't obsess about them. I am more able to see the beauty in myself as a wife, mother, friend, and person. I am okay with not having anything figured out other than what I will make for dinner and sometimes I don't even figure that out until minutes before I turn on the stove.
I am me and I'm okay with not defining all of me right now. There are things that were true about me before that are no longer true and things that aren't true now that may be true later. I am evolving and enjoying (almost)every minute of the process.

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7 comments:

Jen said...

beautiful.

Kelli said...

Well, I think this is a gorgeous photo - or, a photo of a gorgeous girl!

aola said...

great post... you are a beautiful woman.

Kristen said...

Can't tell you how much I love this post. I feel ya, girl.

Cara said...

I love that you are so centered at this age. Some women go their entire lives without understanding or loving themselves.

You are beautiful.

Sandra said...

Thank you all for you kind and supportive words.

colorchic said...

What a beautiful photo... your warmth and beauty shines through. Love this post!