Thursday, August 09, 2007

It's been one of those weeks where it feels like the world is pushing in. My days off at work are all screwed up because everyone wants to take vacation on the same day. It's made things around the house seem a little hectic especially with David's promotion. I never know if he is coming or going. Erin has been so good with all of this. She's been helping out around the house when I need her to. She's even volunteered to do things.
I got all of the paperwork for the CAVA sent off and Erin is in the middle of taking her placement tests. I'm really excited about this new adventure and a little nervous. I hope I'll be enough to handle this. I need to get our sleep schedule back to normal before I try to take homeschooling on!
I purchased tickets for the two of us to go to Oklahoma in September. We are both really excited! We haven't been back in four years. It's really sad to me that it's been that long. I don't know how time can get away from us so quickly. My goal is to visit every year, but something always seems to come up. I think the time away has been good for Erin. She needed to become grounded in our family, and I think she has done that. I know it will be hard for her to see her mom and then to have to leave her again, but I think she can appreciate where she is now and the opportunity she's been given. It has to be confusing for her. It's a confusing situation to me. We are very open and honest with her. If she has a question regarding anything that has happened, I tell her to the best of my ability. I try not to sugar coat things, but I'm not blunt about it either. I don't want to hurt her, but in the end I know she will be hurt. How could she not be? I'm trying to prepare Erin for this trip. I don't want everything to hit her at once. I know that it's going to be tough for her. Please send some light her way.

5 comments:

Kristen said...

I don't know details of course, but I am sending light!

cv said...

Kids can be far more resilient than we ever realize. The truth with love and lots of clarity goes so much farther than you think. My best to You, David, and Erin during this time.

aola said...

Has it really been four years?? oh, my.

I'm sitting here watching your slide show while I write - you've got some great new pictures.

Erin is strong - she had to be to survive. And you are superwoman - remember that while you are in Oklahoma and don't let it overwhelm either one of you. Don't forget that YOU ARE THE MOM now!!!!!

Sandra said...

Thank you all.

C.V. you are right children are far more resilient than we give them credit for. I know Erin is a strong young lady and she will find her way through this.

A, Thanks for reminding me that I AM THE MOM! I don't want to lose any ground over this trip or make it seem as if I'm just a stand in. I've got to remember to hold my ground even when it means someone will be hurt. I'll always do whatever is best for my girl.

Denise said...

Giving birth to a child does not necessarily cause one to become a Mother........ Being a mother is in the heart and not the womb... The womb is where the child grows........ the heart of the woman is from where the child is given life...You have given Erin life from your heart..... and that my dear Sandy makes you a mother...All else fails in comparison..........and come September your actions will be that of a gentle but firm loving mother, despite any obstacles.....