Friday, June 06, 2008

We were supposed to be in San Diego this weekend, but things changed. My sweet niece was in the hospital for dehydration after contracting a stomach virus. It only cut our trip short by a day and a half, but having only two days in San Diego made the eight hour drive seem less than worth it so I opted out of the trip.

My diet over the last week has been awful! My mood and psyche have taken the brunt of the abuse. Last night I woke up at 2 a.m. in the middle of a panic attack. I have reason to panic. We are moving in four weeks, and are having a baby in three months. These are stressful times. What worries me is not the panic attack, but the feeling of hopelessness that threatened to overtake me. I had this exact type of attack when we brought Erin home. Everything in my head spun out of control and all I could imagine was my ultimate and utter failure as a parent, wife, and human being. Each attack has only lasted a few minutes and I'm always able to pull myself back to sanity. I consider myself lucky to have that ability. I know that eating a healthy diet and exercising are huge factors in good mental health. Any time I start eating crap food, I start feeling like crap. So, no more junk food for me. After having yogurt for breakfast and plenty of water, I'm already feeling much better. I'm going to monitor these feelings and emotions as well. Just in case.

8 comments:

aola said...

it always happens in the middle of the night,huh?

sorry your trip wound up badly

Becky said...

this is so how i felt during the pregnancy -- good news -- the actual baby is much easier to handle than the imagined baby.

take care of yourself my dear.

cv said...

I'm glad that you can straighten yourself out with yogurt and water.... for me, it's pharmaceuticals and a team of trained professionals!

All my best wishes to you~

Kristen said...

You are a smart gal, Sandra. :)

Anonymous said...

Sorry your trip to San Diego didn't work out :(
-Jen

Elaine said...

Hi Sandra!
When are you moving? It would be nice to get together before then. Let me know so we can plan something.
Elaine

McMom said...

You are at around 24 wks right? Around this time you have a big hormone surge going on. You may experience some headaches too because of this. Just try and take it easy.

I know that is easier said than done with the move coming! Give your self the freedom to ask for help from local friends. I know I am always trying to it all myself.

You are doing great!

Sandra said...

Cheri, thanks for that bit of info. I knew there must be something hormonal going on for me to have taken a dive like that. It's good to know that it's normal. :)