Monday, September 06, 2010

We are on our way to the Bruin Labor Day Parade after a late night of fireside talking. I'm absorbing all of the sunshine and time with friends that I can. The road ahead promises to be a busy one bustling with new beginnings. Both Hayden and I will start school on the 13th. I'm saddened by the thought of being away from him so much, but excited by all of the possibility I'm creating for the both of us. He will be in a fun learning environment surrounded by kids his age. He loves spending time with other kids and we don't often have the opportunity to be around any his age. We will be celebrating his second birthday soon. I'm not sure how we got here. I remember a trip to the store I took without him just a few weeks after he was born. I was still under the influence of new mommy hormones and recovering from the chaos of his birth. There were so many unknowns floating around in my head. I saw children playing in the isle of the store and wondered if I would be here when Hayden was that age. The future, as it always is for me, was a complete mystery. I only knew that I had that time and that space and I was determined to make the most of it. Here we are nearly two years later, and again we face a future full of mysteries. I am making all of these plans and all of this could easily be turned upside down by whatever we find out on Wednesday.

5 comments:

Jen said...

I'm sorry that i keep you up late when i come over. I really don't mean to and have every intention of leaving early, but then we get to talking and I can't make myself leave.

Anyway, is the drs appointment to find out about his heart on Wednesday? I can't believe I didn't ask you about it.

Kelli said...

What is happening Wednesday? I understand if it is personal, just thought I'd ask.

I hope everything turns out wonderfully. :)

Kristen said...

Thinking about you, my dear ones.

Sandra said...

Jen, you don't keep me up too late! I love our campfire conversations. I'd be disappointed if you didn't stay late.
Kelli, Hayden has a heart murmur and will be having an echo cardiogram done tomorrow to determine the cause. It could be nothing or it could be a hole in his heart similar to what I had. The type I had is genetic.

Kristen, thank you.

Kelli said...

Oh boy. Thank you for sharing - I'll be praying for the both of you!